Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Bukannya senang nak cari kawan yang baik.
Bukan senang juga nak menjadi kawan yang baik.
Kawan yang baik tak pernah mengumpat di
belakang kawan baiknya.
Kawan yang baik tak pernah cemburu dengan
kejayaan kawan baiknya.
Sebaliknya kawan yang baiklah yang paling
banyak membantu
kawan baiknya untuk mencapai kejayaan.
Kawan yang baik tak pernah mempengaruhi kawan
baiknya untuk
membuat perkara yang buruk dan sia-sia.
Kawan yang baik adalah orang yang selalu
menasihati kawan baiknya
untuk berbuat kebaikan.
Kawan yang baik adalah orang pertama yang akan
dicari bila tiba masa sedih atau gembira.
Kawan baik menjadi tempat kita meluahkan
perasaan yang tak dapat diluahkan
kepada kawan biasa.
Kawan yang baik tak pernah memaksa kawan
baiknya untuk sentiasa berada di sisinya.
Kawan yan g baik tak pernah melarang kawan
baiknya untuk berkawan dengan
kawan yang baik. Kawan yang baik tak pernah
cemburu jika kawan baiknya mempunyai ramai
kawan baik, kerana kawan yang baik tahu apa
yang paling baik untuk kawan baiknya.
Kawan yang baik akan sentiasa mendoakan
kesejahteraan dan kebahagiaan kawan baiknya di
dunia dan di akhirat di dalam doanya.
Kita adalah kawan yang baik jika kita faham
bahawa kawan baik kita bukanlah
seorang yang sempurna. Kita adalah kawan yang
baik jika kita menjadi kawan yang baik kepada
kawan baik kita.
Kita bukanlah kawan yang baik jika kita tidak
menghargai kawan baik kita,
kerana kawan yang baik akan sentiasa menghargai
kawan baiknya.
Kita bukanlah kawan yang baik jika kita tidak
memberitahu perkara yang baik kepada kawan
baik kita, kerana kawan yang baik akan selalu
menyampaikan perkara yang baik kepada kawan
baiknya.
Dan kalau kita nak dapat kawan baik yang baik,
kita mesti lebih dahulu menjadi seorang kawan
yang baik...kepada kawan baik kita.
kita kawan kan...???
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
jangan banyak tanya
this is what boredom and headache did to me.

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Monday, August 29, 2005
lemme just recap for the whole week since the day i last posted a journal
thursday - nothing. heh. class as usual.
friday 26/8 - chilli's midvalley wif f****, bought zara half top shirt (ok i dunno what its called anyways).. watched charlie and the chocolate factory. the movie was friggin awesome, oh well.. johnny depp being silly at his best. no wonder huh. =)
saturday 27/8- de cheangmai @ sg buloh, again.. wif mr.f. thanks so much for the lovely dinner. went back home
sunday 28/8- spent time wif me beautiful family..
monday 29/8 - celebrate zick's bday at hartamas wif nurul, and zick's frens. played foosball, menang dengan bergaya. hahahha. humm.. other than that.. classes as always.. already in week 11. wow.. how time flies.. :( gonna graduate soon..
i kno ill miss the times ive had in seri kembangan wif me mates.. i love you guys so damn much.. sigh.. hope our friendship will never end, frens for life aite? :)
tak keruan. tak suka rasa macam ni. tanak la cakap. lemme just keep it to myself. to some, i might appear as if im as cheerful as a 12-year-old girl who just got a barbie doll as a pressie. but heck, i may not appear as what u guys thought.
life is sooooo.. i dunno.
im all confused. trapped in my own trap. padan muka.
btw, happy birthday zick =) may all your wishes come true, you deserve all the good things in life, insya Allah.
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005
lost in thoughts.
lost in my own perceptions.
lost in me.
im all lost.
have u ever felt the road youve taken before only leads u to nowhere?
have u ever felt youve been running around a huge maze and you finally realize that your life is nothing but a labyrinth?
thats what im feeling now.
complicated, innit.
no its not.
maybe its just me.
i tend to take things seriously.
which may lead to high blood pressure.
hehe.
nauzubillah.
life's been good.
but its been so stagnant that im just plain bored.
where have all the ups and downs go?
haih..
i hate temptations.
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Friday, August 19, 2005
wut a long silence from someone. nvm. dont bother asking me who the hell is he. he is no longer in my head. but always in my heart. heh. i still have a tiny hope that he will contact me though. hmm wishful thinking. ok cut it off. enough about the non-existent hope. by the way, if youre reading this by any chance, pls, let me know, whats bothering you. or at least let me know, why the long silence. lets just be friends, im not asking you to marry me. i think ive scared you off your feet, huh? hmm.. friends, are we? cmon, i dont bite. hehe.
let's see.. i was so frustrated yesterday, as i didnt get to buy meself a lomo. ive always wanted that colorsplash lomo for ages, and thats wat always happens when u got the money - out of stock. bloody hell. i wanted to bring it to PD tomorrow.. wanna take lotsa pictures.. damn! unlucky. but somehow i found a shop that sells cute stuff, including cheap tiruan pearls. yehaaa!! oh yeah i met zack, its been ages since i last met him.. u havent change a tiny bit, except that your hair's getting 'bigger' hehe jgn marah. thanks for the DQ blizzard, somehow i managed to finish the whole regular cup size blizzard, though my tummy was still full wif footlong-sausage that i had with zick at waffle house. damn. where do all the food go? *hantu raya makan*
went to hartamas later, and i was so mengantuk. been out since afternoon. the best part was, JAI [the BLOODY cute waffle guy] belanja me brownie with ice cream. hahahha how sweet! thanks yeah! *ngeeeeeeeeeee*
and today as of friday 19th, i went to an art exhibition at NOTTHATBALAI @ seputeh. its like a place where all the art enthusiasts display their artworks and the best place for them to gather. its their 2nd year anyways. zick picked me up around 7 and got there an hour later [fetched nuwul at her place first]. jalan jam nih. shit dah start cuti sekolah. no wonder.
the whole exhibition was nice, today's the opening. started with a brief speech by joe kukathas and didgeridoo performance by bunch of creative mofos. gile best. ada gak orang melayu pandai main didgeridoo. kudos to them! and then there was this duo performance by err i cant remember the group's name. anyhoo, their's was the PELIK one. imagine, two guys, standing face to face on two separate chairs, [about 1 meter gap], facing each other, with the background music of the didgeridoo, and later one guy started to undress himself. yeaahh he was totally naked. ewwwwww!! damn! and the other guy, stepped off the chair and started to wrap the guy who was still standing on the chair with plastic. that is so weird. but the best part was, the guy stood for like more than an hour, and the rest of the crowd started to wrap the guy as well. whoaa.. siap ada kemenyan, spotlight, and it started to be scary gila. art yg tidak boleh diterima akal.
the thing lasted for almost more than an hour, and the 'wrapped' guy diam je and he stood still. giler la. then the crowd siap wrapped him with fresh intestines and all the inner [animal] organs. it was gross enough to take pics.. haha. dun worry, will update the pics later.
and finally the crowd dukung the guy inside the bungalow and the other guy [his partner] started to uncut the wrappings. he looked grosser than a cow dung!! i meant it! and that was it. i dunno what kind of art is that. but i dont think i can accept that as a piece of art. its more like a piece of shit.
then we had this short performance by saifulrazman and his "angkawasawanegara" friends. damn hes cute! ive met him at wayang kontot screening before, and had his number too. hehehhee. but i didnt know that hes one helluva art enthusiast. i made some "homeworks' about the guy and found out that hes got a gf [damn there goes my chance hahhaha], he plays music, and he was the featured artist of the month at err.. i forgot the place. hmm but to conclude, hes one helluva artist!! damn.. artist + cute + musician = what more could i ask for? hahaha..
oh well, their performance was more like anti-governments thingy, and they ended up with "lets hug each other". haha wut an ending. i dunno where the line came from coz based on the performance, takde kena mengena langsung. and the best part was, he came and hugged me. wheeeeeeeeeeee!! muahahhaha. harap2 boleh tido la malam ni hehehe. and the busuk part was, the guy from kopratasa [i forgot his name but he was bloody drunk!!] hugged nurul. hahahahha sebaik tak hug aku hahahah :P
zick was bored enough to join us all. im sorry. janji takkan ajak awak gi tempat camtu lagi ok.. we then headed for hartamas and met huda, dada, asrina and maria. i had soto ayam.. nyummm dah lama tak makan.. and while we were laughing our ass off, JAI came and brought the brownie himself and said "this is for you" oh wow. soooooooo.. sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet! hahahha nasib baik aku takde hati kat dia. but hey, thanks again for the brownie. maybe dia nak balas jasa aku belanja dia fries RM3.50. tapi dah 2 kali dia belanja brownie. yeh yeh!
went back around 215 and im still wide awake. gotta hit the sack now, got a big thing tomorrow. good nite ;)
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Thursday, August 18, 2005
cute nye budak ni rasa cam nak gigit! she almost make me cry.. bijak sungguh budak ni.. isk.. anyways, enjoy the video =)
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Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Missing someone is a terrible but at the
same time, sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering if u
meant anything to him/her.
Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings
hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window hoping that
he/she will surprise u by appearing downstairs.
Sitting in front of the television but
thinking of her missing the final episode of your
favourite show.
Laying on your bed, thinking of the last
time u went out together.
Thinking of how nice it will be to sit
under the stars again, talking about everything, your
dreams, plans, future.
Logging on to the internet hoping to see
him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online
and did not return your page, u will start worrying if
he/she is okay.
Missing someone is a way of growing up i
guess. It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being
lonely and let u know that there is actually a feeling
known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and u indulge
in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.
But missing someone and not knowing if
he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell him/her and
let them know. At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone
become jealousy or paranoid.
If u are the one being missed and u know
it, let the other party know.
if u miss him/her too, tell them.
Don't let them wait.
yeah like whatever, ;)
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Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Who Makes You, You?
Family tries to mold you, into
What they think you should be.
But it is up to you and only you,
To break that mold, and be the
Person, that you want to be.
Life is full of disappointments,
Heartaches and abuse.
Life is full of ups and downs
But I believe, that you and only you,
Can make yourself,
Into what you want to be.
If you make bad choices
Along the way, who is to blame?
It's you and only you.
God gave us all a brain
All we have to do is use it.
We all have a conscience
Listen to it, don't be afraid.
In other words, it's up to you
Not your family or friends,
Your boss from work,
Teachers or counselors.
It is you and only you
Who makes you,
You.
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Saturday, August 13, 2005
to tell the truth, i have short-attention-span towards everything in life [subject to change, especially when it comes to guys haha]. call me sicko wacko weirdo and whatsoever, i dun give a damn, really.
now i sound so.. unkind. so why the harsh? im pretty bored of things that happened to me for the past 8 months of the lameful year of 2005. wow. have u felt that you have actually gained nothing for the past few years of your life? well, its happening to me now. not saying that i havent achieve anything so far, im not much an achiever myself. but up to this extent, ive passed my final year project with flying colours [of course with the help of few ppl], and im proud of that. say what you want, but im happy i passed. i deserve it. [obviously i need some self-motivation here, innit?]
so is that all? gheez. haha. let me recap the whole 8 months of 2005. january, busy working out on my proposal. i wasnt THAT busy as compared to the last 2 months of executing my final yr project though, but i made myself busy. i hate to just lie in my bed and do absolutely fuck all. fatul came into my life in when i was on the verge of giving out.. hey i owe u a lot man! weve been good friends ever since, despite her hebephrenic, psychotic pbomoh garang who never stopped calling me and yelling at me for no reasons. aiyo. what a drama queen.
same thing for february, busy with final year project proposal, up til the month of april. nothing interesting happened in march, except the fun that WE had up in genting..bwahaha!! thats when i became close to mr.'f****' and yeah he is such a nice guy. [jgn sedih lagi la ok.. i know somehow u'll get married with your gf.. your time will come =)..]
and it took me 2 long weeks to finish my video editing [yeah im a last minute person but still im a perfectionist? heh.] it was already april.. and my life was quite the messy. bilik mcm kapal pecah. didnt haf much time to clean things up and all.. hectic as hell. the final project presentation was simpler than i thought, and hey i was quite happy with the outcome of my video, though mr.k was quite disappointed with the audio that i used. hehe nasibla. all in all, im happy with it. but it still needs some ammendments here and there if i really want to satisfy myself. oh well. wat's done is done and im content, as i got an A- for the project! yippeeeee!! oh and to salman, thanks for introducing me to a dear friend of yours.
ive never been happier for the month of may. i was on a long uni break, and i really appreciate those who were there celebrating my birthday [as well as aefa's.] its the best birthday ever [minus the presence of my family]. motherbitches, thanks for the fun time at alamanda, [shit! ryan kasi lomo kat aefa.. jeles2!!] f****, thank you sooooooo damn much for the lovely watch and thanks for spending so much time with me for the whole week.. mak, thanks for the perfume, i LURRRRVE IT!! kokna, thanks for the flight ticket :p, abah, thanks for the wish, akak, thanks for the flip-flop, [mak yang pakai kat umah hehe] nuwul, you are the best partner-in-crime cum my female soulmate, haha.. thanks for the cute telur. sampai hari ni aku tak pecahkan lagi. sayang. and to my family, thanks for the loveliest family vacation. well we never really had proper one thats y i really apreciate it. :D ngee! and thanks to those who wished me, all the calls, all the msgs, all the sms-es.. and thanks to someone for the sweet friendship day on 05/05/05. ive always wanted to do something 'eventful' on every 'cute' date.
[ape ckp mcm nak mati lagi 3 jumaat nih? erk.]
thats a wrap for the month of may.
june. lets see.. nothing much, really. new sem has started and i didnt really feel like going to classes anymore. im tired of spending lots of time on finishing my degree.. can i just skip few months of the year and do my masters straight away? damn. it took me one whole month to realize that ive been wasting my time going to class and not knowing a tiny bit of dr.hew's ACTIONSCRIPT class. wut the fuck. and i am still feeling the same thing now. sigh.. and its the month full of sadness for me, as i officially broke up with adi.. lets just skip this or ill get too emotional later. hmm. but im glad we're still in good terms =) if ure reading this, i miss hanging out with u. rindu nak dengar BM tunggang-terbalik tuh. hahahha. :) oh yeah, zick came into my life after such a long silence for like.. few years? im glad we're still good friends and i would like to thank you for that.. =)
july is the month full of fuck all. see.. i dont remember a single thing that's THAT eventful for the month of july. oh yeah. met ammar for the first time ever since i left school in 1999, haha. ammar joined us [me and my motherbitches] @ nokia starlight cinema and weve been really good friends ever since. tul kan ammar? :p
and the week after was bahij's wedding day. ok. lets not go through it once again, its disheartening. heh.
and pejam celik pejam celik its already half pass the month of august, damn! how time flies! i still have huge piles of assignments ahead of me, but im too lazy to think about any rite now. a sloth i am. im looking forward to few things that's gonna happen to and i will most likely to wrap things up til this year end, no matter how boring my life is. its not for you readers to judge me and all, but its for my personal journal and diary. i dont give a fuck of what you say, i live my own life and go live yours. if you gotta problem with that, go fuck yourself.
wow garangnye.
finally, its a wrap.
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Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Relationships-of all kinds-are like sand
held in your hand.Held loosely, with an
open hand, the sand remains where it
is. The minute you close your hand and
squeeze tightly to hold on, the sand
trickles through your fingers. You may
hold on to some of it, but most will be
spilled. A relationship is like that. Held
loosely, with respect and freedom for the
other person, it is likely to remain
intact.. But hold too tightly, too
possessively, the relationship slips
away and it is gone, forever.
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Tuesday, August 09, 2005
holla ppl.
im quite the dizzy now.
just got back from genting + hartamas.
genting was awesome!
took lotsa gila pics with zick.
to be frank, i really enjoyed the hot choc and cinnamon choc roll @ starbucks near first world hotel.
[thanks zick!]
ngeeeeee! i owe u a lot man! sumpah saya dpt duit scholar nnt saya belanje awak makan besar oke? :D
the weather in genting was awesome too, takde jerebu langsung! maybe sbb the altitude is that high, jerebu tak sampai atas. heh. now im talking like i know everything about cumulonimbus and its sedara sepusing sepusat. oh well at least i still remember one of the clouds names during my geography class in form 3.
so if u guys r sick of the hazy weather in kl, genting always welcomes you. seriously, bersih gila!
we spent like 2 hrs in genting, cheh kejap gila. yea la kedai dah tutup.
straight pegi hartamas. met kamil, ah seng and yoyo. wow skang aku plak dah jadi regular kat uncle don. :P
balik rumah around 2+. zick seem tired n sleepy. sorry awak. :(
but thanks for everything aite? i really appreciate it. nanti kita buat keje gila lagi oke :P

my smelly feet

zick at his best.
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Sunday, August 07, 2005
woke up around 930. damn! dah agak dah sure bangun lambat nye hari ni. smlm tido kol 5. iskisk. konon janji dgn redza nak tunggu kat RnR Dengkil kul 930. isk. but knowing me, the possibility for me to wake up and switch off my alarm and get back to sleep is always there. hek.
siap seperti gaban [not really]. thank god i didnt haf to iron the white top. hmm.. i was thinking to wear my brown zara skirt but knowing the fact that it's quite loose and i might embarrasse myself in front of thousand ppl later, i changed my mind. hmm.. me being fickle, as always. i put on my jeans instead.
fetched fifa and dira at MMU around 10 [dira tak lembs lak hari ni hehe :p] and redza was already waiting for us at RnR Seremban. We changed the plan coz redza was coming from bangi. zick bawak keter lajusssssss gileeeeeeeee takotla! hwuaa!! redza text me as we passed klia. dia nak jalan dulu sbb ira cakap dia dah nak kuar dewan. tak kisah la, kesian gak kat redza coz he'd been waiting for us for more than half an hour. sorry redza!
zick memecut lajus lagi. erk. sampai melaka kul 1130. fuh. sejam setengah dah sampai dewan seri negeri melaka. agak lajus gak la kan tu. selalu org bawak 2 jam. hehehehe.. tak kisah la janji sampai. the weather was bloody hot! i cud barely open my cute eyes. damn! hahahahha. org ramai gila. and we were kinda lost. nasib baik jumpa gak ayman and redza. jerah n ira came out from the hall like minutes after we arrived.
there were lottttttttss of cute guys holding huge bouquets of flowers and waiting for their beloved ones. jealous? of course. and i wonder who's gonna give me flowers on me grad day next year? sob sob.. ok cut it off. its disheartening.
we took few pictures and i started to feel irritated by the weather, huge crowd and the smell of course. not a nice combo, innit? it was already noon and we went straight for lunch at mahkota parade. damn. the last time ive been to mp was like 5 yrs back and the changes are absolutely fuck all. see, how boring melaka is. thats y i moved to cyberjaya instead. cehcehchecehcehcehhhhhhhhh!
we had kfc and mcm biasa tak habis makan. tak selera la kfc. ive had enough of fast food and to be frank, i dont really fancy kfc. :( i despise oily foooooood! sempat pulak si zick ni shopping barang kat situ. isk isk. i saw a nice pair of heels though, quite a fancy one, tapi malas la nak beli. ive had enough of shopping last month and i need to save some money for something else later. hek.
headed back for kl around 3+. tido dalam keter mcm ayam patah leher. i wasnt the only one who 'patah leher', kesian zick. he had to strain his eyes coz he was on the wheels. kalau dia pun tido habislaaaaaaaaa kerahmatullah la kitorang. nauzubillah. hehe.
all in all, its a tiring day and i thot im going to have lotsa fun but heck. i was wrong. but at least we showed up on our dearest friends' convo and im glad they had their day today, and cant wait for my turn next year [minus the thought of having no one to give me flowers, which is a complete turn off but hmm.. we shall see about that nx year.]
signing off.
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Saturday, August 06, 2005
to be frank, i havent sleep since last nite. that means i havent rest for almost 2 days. oi gila. its now 45 minutes past 3 in the morning and to my surprise, im still wide awake. gila again.
'started' today with absolutely fuck'ol. wasted, as always. i was supposed to do some layouts for my web asgmt and finish it later by saturday though, tapi apa pun tak buat lagi. hek. no no im not lazy please dont say that, ive been doing some intense research and a situation analysis for the portal proposal since last week and i needed a piece of mind. im going nutssssss man!
i think my latest passion is foosball. thanks to zick who introduced me to the game. hehe outdated i am. i think im now all hooked up to the letups letups sound [pinjam ayat ikhwan hahahhaa]. geram ok main foosball. nak nak pulak main dgn ikhwan. ok thats a different story.
i went to a new cafe last nite, its called friendster cafe. weird enough coz there's a TM [trademark] at the end of the Friendster word. so that means its an official friendster cafe runs by the mgmt of friendster, or maybe they got the TM from the whole name of the cafe; Friendster Cafe and Restaurant or something. hmm.. that really made us [me, zick, yoyo and poo-u] wonder and we even discussed about the trademarks and all. the best thing is, kat situ boleh main uno stacko. tak main pun sbb tak cukup orang. and i wasnt in the mood of playing anything at that particular moment.
i get bored easily. the cafe was ok bt the service was quite a bit turn down for me. slow nak mampus. pastu dpt iced lemon tea, kurang gula. masam nak mampos. ok turned off. kitorang 4 org decided to go lepak at hartamas as usual [cewah]. main foosball lagi. kalah teruk. i wasnt in the mood at all. main mcm cipet.
balik rumah around 3+. sekali takde letrik. ya allah. what a day huh!! [adegan seterusnya tidak dpt diceritakan atas sebab-sebab tertentu].
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tak boleh nak tido. panas. ada letrik balik kul 6am. haish. takleh tido gak. bukan takleh. tanak tido dan takleh tido. [apa ayat mcm k*ling ni!]atas sebab tertentu jugak. takleh cite. shit. kepala suda pusing.
kul 4, a friend came. settled some things, and kul 830 zick came and fetched me. tengok cite ungu violet kat OU. supposed nak pegi check out the new GSC [for the second time] but i was so friggin tired, i cud barely walk. gila. tak larat nak jalan jauh sbb zick parked his car at the old wing, last skali tgk kat TGV jer. sorry zick i know u prefer GSC than TGV. ill make it up to u some other time alrite?
nasib baik tak tido tgk cite tu. all in all, its not up to my expectations and the ending was sooooooo anti-climax. i reckon everyone in the cinema had the same thought as me. but watching dian still means a lot to you guys, huh? aiyo. serious la, tak best. its not worth watching in the cinema. just wait for someone to buy the CD and pinjam la nanti. tak payah la tengok kat wayang.
pastu pegi hartamas lagi. wow dah jadi permanent resident breakers. semalam main foosball.. hari ni pun main lagi. met efy, umayr, hariz and his 2 friends. hari ni tak suwey sangat mcm semalam. banyak menang game. cayalah! lain kali kita pair lagi eh zick! benci main dgn ikhwan! die main emo!! jerit mcm beruk! takleh nak concentrate la main dgn dia. benci benci! :P
got back around 3+, and as im writing this, my eyes are still wide open. gila aper. dah la tak tido smlm. huwaaaaah. i think im so becoming a zombie! :-s. gulp.
ok nak try tido.
another busy day ahead [yeah busy watching AF3 finale hehehehe].
byebye.
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Wednesday, August 03, 2005
i dunno what keeps me writing here.
im all sad.
sad like a little girl crying over her missing teddybear.
sigh..
feels like my heart's now crushed to pieces.
damn you.
its not worth all the tears.
and why shud i bother then?
zip it.
dell. be strong.
ure all grown up now.
[i hate to admit that im 23 yrs old tho!]
face the music.
u cant have everything u want.
and things happen for a reason.
maybe its just not....... worth it.
ok shut up.
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Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Pentingnya wanita di sisi lelaki
Jangankan lelaki biasa, Nabi pun terasa sunyi
tanpa wanita. Tanpa mereka, hati, fikiran, perasaan
lelaki akan resah. Masih mencari walaupun sudah
ada segala-galanya. Apalagi yang tidak ada di
syurga, namun Nabi Adam tetap merindukan Hawa.
Kepada wanitalah, lelaki memanggil ibu, isteri atau
puteri. Dijadikan mereka dari tulang rusuk yang
bengkok untuk diluruskan oleh lelaki, tetapi kalau
lelaki sendiri yang tidak lurus, tidak mungkin
mampu untuk meluruskan mereka. [ya btul!!]
Tak logik kayu yang bengkok menghasilkan
bayang-bayang yang lurus. Luruskanlah wanita
dengan cara petunjuk Allah, kerana diciptakan
begitu rupa oleh mereka. Didiklah mereka dengan
panduan dariNya: Jangan cuba jinakkan mereka
dengan harta, nanti mereka semakin liar, jangan
hiburkan mereka dengan kecantikan, nanti mereka
semakin menderita.
Yang sementara itu tidak akan menyelesaikan
masalah, kenalkan mereka kepada Allah, zat yang
kekal, di situlah kuncinya. Akal setipis rambutnya,
tebalkanlah dengan ilmu, hati separuh kaca,
kuatkan dengan iman, perasaan selembut sutera,
hiasilah dengan akhlak.
Suburkanlah kerana dari situ nanti mereka akan
nampak penilaian dan keadilan Tuhan. Akan
terhibur dan berbahagialah mereka, walaupun tidak
jadi ratu cantik, dunia, presiden ataupun perdana
menteri atau women gladiator. Bisikkanlah ke
telingan mereka bahawa kelembutan bukanlah
satu kelemahan. Itu bukan diskriminasi Tuhan.
Sebaliknya di situlah kasih saying Tuhan, kerana
rahim wanita yang lembut itulah yang
mengandungkan lelaki-lelaki yang pelbagai wajah:
negarawan, karyawan, jutawan dan wan-wan yang
lain. Tidak akan lahir superman tanpa
superwoman,. Wanita yang lupa hakikat
kejadiannya pasti tidak akan terhibur dan tidak
menghiburkan. Tanpa ilmu, iman dan akhlak,
mereka bukan sahja tidak boleh diluruskan,
bahkan mereka pula yang membengkokkan.
Lebih banyak lelaki yang dirosakkan oleh
perempuan daripada perempuan yang dirosakkan
oleh lelaki. Sebodoh-bodoh perempuan pun boleh
menundukkan sepandai-pandai lelaki.
Itulah akibatnya apabila wanita tidak kenal Tuhan.
Mereka tidak akan kenal diri mereka sendiri,
apalagi mengenal lelaki. Kini bukan sahaja
banyak bos telah kehilangan setiausaha, bahkan
anakpun akan kehilangan ibu, suami kehilangan
isteri dan bapa akan kehilangan puteri. Bila wanita
derhaka, dunia akan huru-hara. Bila tulang rusuk
patah, rosaklah jantung, hati dan limpa. Para lelaki
pula jangan hanya mengharapkan ketaatan tapi
binalah kepimpinan.
Pastikan sebelum memimpin wanita menuju Allah,
pimpinlah diri sendiri dahulu kepadaNya. Jinakkan
diri kepada Allah, nescaya jinaklah segala-galanya
di bawah pimpinan kita.
PS; susah nak cari lelaki yg boleh bimbing perempuan sekarang. nak tanak perempuan pun takleh la nak harapkan laki je.. tapi wanita memerlukan lelaki untuk dibimbing.. zaman skang takleh pakai sangat dah. silap silap wanita yg bimbing laki. kan jenet kan kan?
12:22 PM;
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Monday, August 01, 2005
pernah tak rasa
hari ni mood baik
esok mood tak berapa nak baik
pernah tak rasa
hari ni kita suka
esok kita melugai (bahasa penang)
pernah tak hari ni kita excited
esok kita rasa macam malas nak fikir apa-apa
pernah tak terfikir
sampai bila kita nak rasa semua ni?
mixed feelings kot.
kekadang kita kena percaya pada notions kita.
they say, women's instincts are stronger than men's
and i believe that's true.
pernah tak tertanya-tanya kenapa
kita rasa macam tu
mesti ada sebab kan?
*sigh*
8:11 AM;
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